Month: July 2018

Heartless #1 – Book Review

Synopsis

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I’m warned that Carter Hayes is heartless.

He’s part of the screw crew.
He’ll just use you and leave you.
He’s ruthless and always gets what he wants.

Just look for the trail of broken hearts and dreamy sighs and you’ll find him.

“Hot as sin, Carter.”

I don’t have time to fall head over heels for any guy. Besides, he’d never notice someone like me. I have a three step plan. Get through college. Get a job. Get my sister out of the hell hole I left her in. That’s all I have time for.

That’s until I hear of the betting pool the guys started. Whoever screws me first gets the money. The moment Carter looks at me, I know it’s only because of the bet.

I tell myself our first kiss is only for show.
I hate my heart for falling for his irresistible charm.

For one foolish moment, I actually want him to be my first earth-shattering love. All it takes for me to give in is a little attention, a cocky smile, and a fake promise of a happily-ever-after.

When I’m surrounded by crumpled sheets and the smell of sex, I realize I let him have me for four hundred dollars.

To save what little pride I have left, I pretend it didn’t mean anything, that he’s just one last screw before we all leave college.

I’ve spent the last four years lying to myself. When I’m ready to take the final step of my plan, and save my sister, guess who walks through my front door?

This is a full-length, stand alone, unrequited love/second chance romance. 
Note: The book ends at 77% with samples of Predator and Protector. 

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Goodreads review – 3.76 star rating with over 1,600 ratings.
Amazon review – 4 1/2 star rating with 36 reviews.

Pages 219 – Available as a paperback or on Kindle/Kindle unlimited.
I received a free ARC copy for an honest review.

Review

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Carter Hayes and Della Truman, both go to the same college, but both in very different social groups.
Della is keeping her head down, working at a local diner to save up money to look after her sister after college.  Della and her sister lost their parents who sadly passed away when they were young.  Leaving Della to step up and provide the best life for her little sister.
Della is in her final year of college.  So far she has kept to her books, worked late nights, and gone home when she can.   She comes across as a protective girl, but tends to act first and think things through later, jumping to conclusions and impulsive, this doesn’t always work out how she planned, especially in her final year of college when she meets Carter Hayes.

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Carter is part of the “Screw crew”, well known for picking up girls and then leaving ASAP.  He has been labelled Heartless, mess with him and he is sure to get you back far worse than you dished out.
I found Carter to be a quiet man unless approached, however he has a very caring heart hidden under his tough exterior.
Della is having a hard time when part of the crew Rhett keeps hitting on her.  Rhett is known at the beginning of this book for never giving up when he sees a girl he wants.
After Della uses some smart ass remarks to challenge Rhett he is more intrigued.  Rhett decides to place a bet that who ever gets Della into bed by the end of the year will win £400, at this point Carter walks in willing to defend Della but she is having none of it.  Della become feisty and rude, this of course sets Carter off to the point he lets her know how he feels.

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Even though Rhett comes across as a jerk at the beginning, the screw crew are more like brothers and do actually respect women.  They help one another, and would never hurt anyone. They just happen to be a very attractive group of men that women throw themselves at, but not Della.  Well she thought she wouldn’t but Carter was different, more challenging and matched her.

Rhett- “You never use your strength against a woman.  You’re not fucking stronger to hold them down.  You’re stronger to protect them asshole”.

Della doesn’t realise the groups kindness and caring manner until she walks home late after work one night and two drunk men make advances at her.
She was extremely lucky that the 5 guys from the screw crew were driving by.  Once they see she is in distress and realise what the two men are trying to do, the boys jump into action.  Rhett and Carter protect her while the others sort the two men out.  After this Della becomes included in their family, against her choice of course.   The guys help her with her car and take genuine interest into how she is feeling.

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Throughout the book I enjoyed reading how Della and Carter fought.  They obviously were attracted to one another but refused to give in.  When they did they would both become defensive and show hatred.

After college 4 years later, a lot has changed for Della, she has had to grow up considerably and take over a diner left to her.  She was struggling but getting by.  Then she bumps into the screw crew and Carter!   Some big surprises are to come his way and they are both forced to face each other and their feelings head on, but this time they can’t think about themselves.

The whole book was amazing, i was kept on my toes and did not expect to read what happened when Carter and Della meet again.  These two characters are both strong in their own way and I fell in love with them both, they have both had to face a lot in their life but now they have to come together.  This book also gives the reader a chance to see the story from both their sides of life, by each chapter focusing on one or the other.

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Michelle Horst has definitely included fun, humour, erotica and overall a great page turner.  I will definitely be reading the rest of the books in the series.  They are all stand alone books but link into the series by following each of the 5 men.

 

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Masterson (Fixer Series Book 1) (The Fixer Series) by [Lang Blakeney, Lisa]

A dangerous professional fixer.
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After Elizabeth Hill is brutally attacked in her apartment by an intruder and then unceremoniously dumped by her ex-boyfriend, she moves in with family that she barely knows for protection. All she remembers about her aunt’s stepson, Roman, is that he was the moody, mean boy who played a cruel trick on her when she was just six years old; but soon learns that he is now a complex and multi-layered man who has the ability to protect her, ignite her, and challenge her like no one ever has before.

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My baby boy’s journey and diagnosis of Posterior urethral valve confirmed.

Hello and welcome back to part 2 of Clayne’s arrival.  To read about my delivery follow this link- My Labour/Delivery story  🙂
This post is following my little boys journey so far, he is now a month old and was diagnosed with having PUV (Posterior Urethral valve).  I previously made a post about the risks which I will link – My Baby pregnancy update – possible concerns – Posterior Urethral Valve???
I apologise for the photos in this post for some reason they are a little pixelated.

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This photo was taken the night he was born 26/06 Tuesday.  As soon as he was on Neonatal intensive care (NICU) they placed a catheter into his bladder because his abdomen was swollen and he was showing signs of having PUV.  He was put on a small amount of oxygen because his chest x-ray showed that he had a bilateral pneumothorax (air between the lung and chest wall on both sides,  he was showing signs of respiratory(Breathing) distress once born.

Due to all the blood tests and blood pressure checks they asked if they could put in his umbilical cord an arterial line which would measure his blood pressure, and a venous catheter which they would use to take bloods from.  This would reduce the amount of needle punctures.  Of course we agreed, anything to make it easier on our little man.

The following day (Wednesday) they carried out an Ultra sound scan of his abdomen, this showed he had hydronephrosis (too much fluid in his kidneys), again they said it still looked likely that he had PUV but would like to do a more in depth scan called MCUG ( involved dye being put into his bladder to highlight the valve if he had it).  They managed to squeeze him in on the Wednesday and then the condition was confirmed the same day.  Our little boy had PUV and needed to go to Bristol ASAP for surgery.

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Above is Clayne in all his gear ready to be transported to Bristol for his surgery to remove the valve.  It all happened so fast as he ended up travelling there at 1930 that evening.  I still wasn’t discharged and therefor got transferred myself to the same hospital.  This was an emotional time for us both, Craig held himself together for me, but he too was worried for our little boy.

We did not arrive in Bristol until midnight, we quickly saw our little boy and went to bed.
Thursday morning we met with his surgeon and anaesthetist.  I was very emotional, my little boy was not even 2 days old yet and had already been through so much.

The surgery involved them going into his bladder via his penis with a small camera (Cystoscopy) to see how bad the valve was.  According to the surgeon post procedure, the valve was the worst it could be, completely blocking his urethra causing the bladder to swell and develop nodules which will take a long time to relax.
The surgeon removed the valve and replaced the catheter, which would have to stay in for a couple days (was removed on the Monday).  This allowed the swelling to reduce and give our little boy some comfort.  He was so brave and did not need pain relief post.

Because of his enlarged bladder and the strain of it being so tense our little boy will be monitored for many years.  He is at risk of retaining urine, therefor myself and Craig will be learning how to catheterise him for the future.

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Post surgery above.
He has a 1/3 chance of developing kidney disease.  The surgeon said he is a high risk due to the damage the valve has caused.   We will be seeing a renal (Kidney) consultant regularly for blood tests to see if his kidneys are failing, if they are this means he could require a kidney transplant.  However this may not show for a year.

As he gets older and his bladder is relaxing, like I said it can take years…… he may not be able to control his bladder all the time.  This is something we haven’t come across yet/ discussed with the team, because that’s too far in the future.  Therefor there is no plan as of yet.

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The two photos above were on the Friday.  Our little boy was moved from NICU into the high dependency ward.  We were finally allowed to change his nappy, dress him and get cuddles when we wanted.  As you can see he had a lot of attachments, so we were both nervous and it took two to get him out of his cot.   The plan was that the catheter would come out in a couple days but that ended up being Monday.  Bloods to be taken regularly, plus monitoring how much he was passing via the catheter.   The risk was that with the catheter he may lose too much urine causing an imbalance in his electrolytes.

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Over the weekend I was able to breast feed him, get plenty of cuddles and try skin to skin.  But as you can see from the above photo he became very jaundice, therefor on Monday required the UV lights overnight to help.  He was nicknamed my little Simpson baby.

On the Monday they confirmed that we will be going back to Bristol in September for a follow up operation.  The plan is to have another look with the camera to see how his bladder is coping and whether the valve is growing back.  At the same time unfortunately our little boy will be circumcised to reduce the risk of infection in the future.

Finally on the Tuesday night we got to go home.  We are still giving him antibiotics every night to cover any risk of a urine infection.
Clayne has been a huge learning curve for us, and our little boy has been through so much, he will always be our special little man.

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Mistress of the vampire – Book Review

Synopsis

He had a hungry look in his eyes. He had been searching, seeking, until he found me. I was burning under his gaze, I wanted to rip my clothes off, I wanted to run away. Who was this beautiful man and what did he want from me?

Magnus Redman became my boss and my lover. I was young, innocent and inexperienced, the opposite of him, and he knew just how to penetrate the soft core of my mind until all I could think about was him. Our passion was intense, crazy, sexy, white hot and dangerous, just like him. I craved him like a drug, his hands, his body, his teeth……

But then hidden secrets and painful revelations from the past threatened to tear us apart. And we found ourselves battling a powerful force hell-bent on revenge and destruction. How much would we be willing to sacrifice to save the ones that we love?

Kindle Edition, 259 pages
3.97 star rating on Goodreads with 31 ratings.
5 star rating on Amazon with 6 reviews (Kindle Edition via Amazon Only £1.99 UK)

My rating – 5 stars

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Review

I was sent an ARC of this book for an honest review.

Lenna and Magnus come from two very different backgrounds, or so they thought.
Lenna lives with her best friend Sarah at college.  Lenna needs some extra cash to get by, when she starts working in a mansion as a cleaner/hostess.
This is when Lenna meets Magnus, a tall handsome and intriguing man.  Lenna is attracted to him and becomes willing to agree to his requests, practically weak at the knees.

The story was fast paced, Magnus at the beginning comes right out with “i’m a vampire” no questions, no secrets, just the truth.  The first scene between them is him feeding off her, the sexual tension between them both and the chemistry is instant, but Lenna was warned by her boss at the beginning that being with Magnus comes with risks.  The erotic scenes were few, however very heated and not over done.  Definitely an adult book.

Lenna was always safe until her grandfather passes away, then all of a sudden a group of vampires called the Vamposi take a lot of interest in her and threaten not only her life but that of her friend Sarah.  Magnus feels forced to intervene and protect Lenna.

However there are secrets that even Lenna didn’t know about her grandfather, once he passes she is forced to face the truth head on, but how will Magnus feel when the truth is revealed and they are both forced to discuss their past.

The book travels between the world of Magnus as well as Lenna, giving a great insight into their feelings, past and present.   As well as delving into another character “Richard” – his character is revealed in the finale and I didn’t even see it coming.
To find out where the title of the book comes from you have to read the book, all the way to the end, all is revealed.
The ending was very unexpected, new paranormal creatures came into the story,  Magnus has secrets that I didn’t even guess throughout the book and overall Lenna becomes a bad ass.  very empowering.

Overall I loved this book, I was engrossed.  I am very much looking forward to the second book because this story definitely finished with a cliffhanger, and I NEED to know what happens next for these two.

Books like this one are reasons why I love paranormal fantasy books.  They send your imagination wild, and I am lost in a whole new world.

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My Labour/Delivery story

Hello all this is part 1 of 2, the second will include the little journey my son Clayne had once he was born.
I have tried to shorten this post as much as I can because it’s a LONG story but I don’t want to bore you all.

On the 24/06 I was booked in to be induced with my little boy due to his tummy being enlarged ( down to his condition PUV- in the next post part 2).
Not much happened on the Sunday, I was admitted, observations checked, examined, monitored and then the Pessary was placed. I was told I would be checked in 24 hours and that the pessary can last for up to 30 hours.

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On the Monday not much happened until the afternoon, I was starting to get some twinges but was told my contractions were not painful and I was no where near regular.
I was again monitored and just advised to use the birthing ball.

Due to the ward being busy I was not checked at 1530 for my 24 hour check, therefor I was next checked at 2100, at this point I was starting to feel regular contractions and they were increasing in pain. When the midwife examined me she said I was only 2cm but was willing to remove the pessary.

After a couple more hours at about midnight my contractions were extremely painful, they kept monitoring me and said my contractions were all over the place and that this could go on for hours before I began having regular contractions.

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I was taking Paracetamol and Oramorph at this point for pain relief. By 1 am I couldn’t take the pain anymore, the pain relief was not taking the edge off and I asked to be examined again. The midwife looked at how often my contractions were and said I still wasn’t regular and there was no way that I was far enough along to go to labour ward. After I begged her to check she examined me and said that I was actually 4 cm and ready to go to labour ward……. this was the best news ever.

Once on labour ward around 2 am I was immediately offered gas + air which definitely made me feel drunk ( no other way to explain it). After this bits and pieces are a little foggy and time flew by. At around 10/11 am I was so tired, and the pain was just increasing ( little did I know until I was 10cm that my little boy was turning with every contraction and was then back to back). At this point I opted for the epidural which worked so well for me, I was then able to nap on and off between contractions and get some energy. This did mean that I had to have a catheter inserted due to reduced mobility and strain.

At around 1500 I was examined and told I was 10 cm, Craig and I were so excited and ready to go. My contractions were never regular but the midwife was monitoring and telling me when to push. After 3 contractions and pushing for a total of 30 mins my little boy was not moving and his heart rate was dipping with each contraction.
My midwife called in another nurse who examined me and said that my little boy had turned and that I was going to need help to deliver him.

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The doctors were already aware of the complications my little boy could have once born so they were keen to make sure he was not stressed further and decided to take me to theatre. ( Link to complications – My Baby pregnancy update – possible concerns – Posterior Urethral Valve???)
In theatre they explained they would like to do an episiotomy (small cut – I won’t go into details about the after care), use a Kiwi suction cup to turn him which they used twice on him, and then use forceps to guide him out while I pushed. If this didn’t work then it would be an emergency c section.
I was very lucky to have the original plan, which meant I did not need the C section.

Pushing was very odd as I was completely numb from the middle of my abdomen right down to my toes, I didn’t feel I was doing much at all.
It was very scary having about 20 people in the room, 4 of them were just for my baby so they could take him to intensive care.

At 16:51 my baby boy Clayne Joseph Allan Jones was born. My midwife was so lovely, she managed to get Clayne so I could cuddle him before they took him to examine him. If it wasn’t for her we would have never got a cuddle.
The whole birth was emotional for me and Craig but in a happy way, we both instantly fell in love with our little boy.

I will complete a separate post to explain what happened to Clayne once he was born and his first week in this world. All spent in hospital, so please follow and keep an eye out.

The Ghost Downstairs – Book Review.

After making a fatal mistake on the job, Lina Zuendel seeks shelter in a Seattle assisted-living facility as their live-in nurse. But peace is not what she finds. She soon hears tales of ghosts haunting the house, and of two tragic deaths that took place in the 1930s. Unexplained events send her to ask questions of the handsome resident houseboy.

Ren Schultz, a seemingly young live-in houseboy, tries to avoid his growing attraction to the new nurse. His secrets are too dangerous to share, no matter how lonely he has become. But Lina is persistent, and soon uncovers dark truths that no one else has dared to face.

As their attraction grows, so does the intensity of the paranormal activity. Can their love survive the mysteries that lurk in the old sorority house?

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Review – ARC copy via Netgalley in exchange for an honest review.

Lina is a nurse who made a mistake on the job, one she regrets even though the family of the deceased patient are not pressing charges, and the hospital wish to keep her.  She decides to leave the hospital environment and embark on a new journey working in a Residential home in an old styled home which has it’s own back story.  Quiet, peaceful and a fresh start.
She leaves her old friends/room mates behind, as well as trying to get over the fact that her ex boyfriend is now suddenly in a committed relationship literally 3 months after breaking up.

Lina meets Ren, a houseboy who has been working at the home for years, never seems to leave and keeps himself to himself.  Even after warnings of not getting to close by the manager Marla, Lina is still smitten and proceeds to get to know Ren, not before long they develop a close friendship.
Ren and Lina both have issues in their life, however Ren has a little bit more hidden beneath the surface.  That is until Lina decides to take one of Ren’s diaries,  and discovers a whole new truth to why he is on “house arrest”.

The book is a very lighthearted romance book, main focus is on Lina and Ren but there are the odd appearances from Mrs B, Marla, and an unwanted ghost that everyone is suspicious about, whether you believe in them or not.  Lots go bump in the night.

I liked the twist and turns of this story, I was constantly engaged between the romance brewing between Ren and Lina.  I liked that the secondary characters were enough to push Lina and keep the story flowing, I enjoyed the banter between the residents, it kept the story light hearted even when there was some dark parts.
The story line never dragged, a little mystery, romance, drama, supernatural and a few spooks along the way.  But not a horror story.
I never would have guessed the ending though, that was a surprise, and well written by the author.

I have fallen in love with these two characters, I felt so sorry for Lina.  Being a nurse myself I can only imagine how bad it feels to make a mistake on the job and the guilt way you down.
Ren – he was sweet throughout, mysterious, caring and an honest man.  Well honest when he could be without there being a threat of Lina leaving, if she knew the whole truth.

I am now hooked on the Author Molly Ringle and her art of story telling.  To keep me intrigued like this is rare and only a few authors have managed to keep my attention throughout, I definitely recommend this book to you all.


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My rating: 5 of 5 stars

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